“Sleep that knits

up the raveled sleave of care, The death of each day’s life, sore labor’s bath, Balm of hurt minds, great nature’s second course, Chief nourisher in life’s feast.” (Wm. Shakespeare – MacBeth: Act 2, Scene 2)

I’m not good at sleeping. Even as a baby I was not good at sleeping (so I was told) tho I was good at staying very, very quiet.

Sometimes I don’t sleep because my mind is racing a mile a minute, obsessing over past, present and future occurrences and events.  Re-hashing conversations/confrontations past and present and anticipating future ones.

And sometimes I can’t sleep because I think what a waste of time sleeping is, and I could be doing something, or I’m missing out on something. 

Last night I woke around 12:30am – and thought “I can be up doing something useful” and went promptly back to sleep only to wake again around 4am because Frankie (the cat) was trying to wake my husband up – 4am is getting on to be breakfast time in their world. I then fell asleep and slept like the dead until a little past 7am. 

I felt well rested, my usual goofy morning self, yet – so lazy. I spent the morning procrastinating – 

I am a self-described night owl but I wonder if that is just my natural rhythm or one acquired as a baby. Several months ago I decided I would go to bed when my husband did – 10pm, sleepy or not. And now that is my habit, and mostly, just barely, I am asleep by 11pm or so.  I can’t remember the last time I slept through the night,  slept more than an hour or two at time, waking, being aware that I was awake, and then falling back to sleep, sometimes sooner, sometimes later. And sometimes not at all. 

“The sleep that knits up the raveled sleave of care” is not the sleep I know much of, but when I manage it I appreciate it, I cherish it. 

Can one love sleep? Yes, like the inconstant lover that it is.

12 thoughts on ““Sleep that knits”

  1. I do that too. My mind races and I think of all sorts of things. They are rarely good things, so I have to do some imagery…packing them in a container and lock it. If I return to the container, I pat it…and walk away again. Then I turn my pillow over and move on. It usually works for me. It was worse when I shared the bed with Snorey Joe. His snoring would wake me up, then I would think, and I could not fall back asleep. I had to change that for my good.

    I love sleep. And I love a good nap (20 minutes or so) in the afternoon.

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  2. I used to fall asleep and be dead to the world until the next morning. The last couple of years I don’t sleep well. I fall asleep and wake up every 2 hours. Sometimes I fall back asleep easy and sometimes I toss and turn until my alarm goes off at 4:20. I would love to sleep all through the night

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    1. I go through periods when I wake up every 1.5 hours – on the dot until around 4 or 5am – then I’ll fall into a deep sleep. And as you get older (much older) there are those pesky bathroom breaks that wake you. I think the last time I slept for 8 hours straight was last year when I had dental surgery – the residue of the sedation coupled with a pain pill – Boom! I was out for the count.

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  3. I’m sorry you’re still having so much trouble sleeping through the night. I fall asleep fast but I wake between 3-4am every day. I don’t know why but sometimes it’s Angel, sometimes it’s just me. Last weekend I slept two nights straight through so I thought I’d finally beat it but nope, the last 3 days up at 3am. I no longer rehash crap in my head but I think of everything I need or should do that day.

    I think being a night owl is a natural rhythm because I’m pretty sure I’m one. I’ve been fighting it for years and win the battle if I try to go to sleep before 10:30. If it’s after that, forget it. I’m awake for hours no matter how tired I was before.

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    1. I think you are right about trying to get to sleep before 11pm (for me), it has worked to a large extent, but not always. I’ve never really slept through the night – so, yeah, 72 years of not sleeping well LOL

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  4. I LOVE sleep, always have. I’ve never thought I should be up and doing something, if I wake before morning I’ll just sit in bed and read until I fall asleep again. When too many thoughts are racing around, I shut them of with a repeated three words( for me it’s black velvet cloud) until the black velvet takes me to dreamland, usually within five minutes. This week I’ve been running ragged doing far too much, so this afternoon when I lay down for a rest, I slept like a log for four hours.

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  5. Sleeping is not a waste. In fact, it’s one of the most important things you can do each day, because that is when your body regenerates.

    I love to sleep. If I sometimes struggle to fall asleep, simply counting, slowly, one number to one breath, up to ten and then start again so one doesn’t have to ‘think’ too hard, and not allowing my mind to wander beyond the number itself, usually do the trick. It’s meditating 101. 🙂

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    1. Yeah, yeah sleeps great and all that jazz…aids in everything BUT I don’t sleep, I don’t want to sleep even tho, on those rare occasions when I sleep 7 or 8 hours straight through and wake up feeling well and rested and energetic, I think “wow, that was great”. I’ve never been good at sleeping since the moment I was born (as I have been told). I particularly don’t sleep at night. The night is the best time of the day. Dusk to dawn – that’s when I thrive, if I was allowed to but life is one big effing compromise. Meditation? Nah – been there tried that – many times, formally and informally, as in took ‘classes’ OMFG – was that annoying. Life on my terms – wouldn’t that be a blast but – reality is a bitch!

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